The song is an Internal Monologue it's probably me speaking to myself on things I do and used to do which I wasn't aware of before I actual wrote the song, so I sat down and kinda like broke down my life as a sad teenage loner boy who party much, like girls and drinking and I also touch on my mental illness which I was diagnosed with when I was 18 which is OCD, as an antisocial person I found a way to talk to people through a song since I'm not a type to sit down and tell my story ...Enjoy